You think it makes her happy, knowing your miserable? And if you're not going to ever let this go. I have half a mind, to reverse time to before we even got together, and you can go back to being happy couple while I stay the fuck away. You encouraged this, you knew it was a possibilty, and still, you encouraged this. If you never wanted it to happen, than you should have just kept your mouth shut. I get you didn't get to go first, and that sucks for you, but you're acting like a spoiled little shit for a problem, YOU created! Grow the fuck up son. And I know this is just gonna cause your emo ass to spiral even more, but honestly, you need to hear it. Everyone here, loves everyone here. It's not just you.